The General Principle

5 more weeks until our daughter makes it to this sphere in which we dwell. I know I could speak for J and I, but I'll speak for myself. I'm really nervous, in a positive, and slightly negative way. I mean, who wouldn't be. To my daughter, I will probably be the smartest, most influential person in her life (hopefully forever), and those are big shoes to fill. I'm certain though, when I look at her, and see the even mix of her mother and I, it wont matter whether I know the answers the questions she poses, or whether I'm really tired, and dont have enough energy to give...I WILL!!!

Maleah is the first girl on my side of the family, and the first grandchild on my wife's side, so everyone is equally as excited about her arrival. I've given her so many names, heartbeat, buttafly, swish swish, lil lady, m jizzle. My oldest brother named her miracle, cause thats the name that he saw in a dream, and he's actually the first person that told the family we were going to have a girl, even buying her a pink outfit for Christmas, before we knew what we were having. A new name came to mind, and I thought it was most fitting.... "First Lady"!

We're going to weekly appts from here on out. In my spare time, I've been trying to move stuff around, and get the house prepared for her arrival. J is going through all of her clothes, trying to decide what can be put to the back of the closet, and what she will need immediately. It's overwhelming, we're so new to this, and sometimes we feel like we're walking into it blindly. I just feel like God wouldnt have given us a daughter if he didnt think we could handle it. WE ARE BLESSED!!!!! TRULY!!!!!


See ya soon "first lady"

Sooooooooooo!

The Kanye West song states "WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN". I feel as though I'm having one of those moments right now. I cant imagine why, but it seems that way. Trying to sift through the debris and the fog of it all, so I can see clearly again. At any rate, these are just my thoughts. Thoughts that I'm assuming will lift me freely to where I need to be. I often wonder to myself, how strange it iz "what a day may bring". We truly are just living this life, nothing is certain, and we have to make adjustments when the curve balls come our way. Its scary at times, but thats just the way it is. Life is crucial, every corner we turn has a surprise, both good and bad, and the way we deal with the way these issues come at us is assisting us in building character, for both ourselves, and our families.

It may not be what you want to hear when youre bombarded with the storms of life, that seem to come through and blow down all your plans and dreams, but its truly the way it is. Think on that, and understand that understanding HAS TO come from your lowest moments. It's in those moments that you are aware of how to get through it all. When you look back, you should be able to say WOWW, I DID THAT!!!!!

Well hello out there readers, onlookers, ground movers, etc. I come to you today with a challenge. In a sense, I've been one to step out and defy all the laws that nay sayers have put against me. In the same breath, I feel like I shouldve had so much more for myself at my age, or maybe I just want more than most. I wanted to be an anastesiologist when I was a child, can you believe that. I was so fascinated with the fact that I could put a human being to sleep in order for them to go through surgery etc. Somewhere along the line Im sure I got discouraged once I realized how much math this job would entale. I often wished I wouldve pursued it, but since I didnt, I guess I've moved on. At any rate, I guess my moral would be to go after your dreams because you dont want to look back over your life and say, "wouldve couldve shouldve"