THANK HEAVENS FOR GRANDMOTHERS!
MJR (the second coming)
MALEAH'S EN ROUTE!!!!
5 more weeks until our daughter makes it to this sphere in which we dwell. I know I could speak for J and I, but I'll speak for myself. I'm really nervous, in a positive, and slightly negative way. I mean, who wouldn't be. To my daughter, I will probably be the smartest, most influential person in her life (hopefully forever), and those are big shoes to fill. I'm certain though, when I look at her, and see the even mix of her mother and I, it wont matter whether I know the answers the questions she poses, or whether I'm really tired, and dont have enough energy to give...I WILL!!!
Maleah is the first girl on my side of the family, and the first grandchild on my wife's side, so everyone is equally as excited about her arrival. I've given her so many names, heartbeat, buttafly, swish swish, lil lady, m jizzle. My oldest brother named her miracle, cause thats the name that he saw in a dream, and he's actually the first person that told the family we were going to have a girl, even buying her a pink outfit for Christmas, before we knew what we were having. A new name came to mind, and I thought it was most fitting.... "First Lady"!
We're going to weekly appts from here on out. In my spare time, I've been trying to move stuff around, and get the house prepared for her arrival. J is going through all of her clothes, trying to decide what can be put to the back of the closet, and what she will need immediately. It's overwhelming, we're so new to this, and sometimes we feel like we're walking into it blindly. I just feel like God wouldnt have given us a daughter if he didnt think we could handle it. WE ARE BLESSED!!!!! TRULY!!!!!
See ya soon "first lady"
TAKING THE STAIRS INSTEAD OF THE ELEVATOR (In a literal sense)
A River Everflowing!
Sooooooooooo!
The Kanye West song states "WHEN IT ALL FALLS DOWN". I feel as though I'm having one of those moments right now. I cant imagine why, but it seems that way. Trying to sift through the debris and the fog of it all, so I can see clearly again. At any rate, these are just my thoughts. Thoughts that I'm assuming will lift me freely to where I need to be. I often wonder to myself, how strange it iz "what a day may bring". We truly are just living this life, nothing is certain, and we have to make adjustments when the curve balls come our way. Its scary at times, but thats just the way it is. Life is crucial, every corner we turn has a surprise, both good and bad, and the way we deal with the way these issues come at us is assisting us in building character, for both ourselves, and our families.
It may not be what you want to hear when youre bombarded with the storms of life, that seem to come through and blow down all your plans and dreams, but its truly the way it is. Think on that, and understand that understanding HAS TO come from your lowest moments. It's in those moments that you are aware of how to get through it all. When you look back, you should be able to say WOWW, I DID THAT!!!!!
HELLO WORLD!!!!
Well hello out there readers, onlookers, ground movers, etc. I come to you today with a challenge. In a sense, I've been one to step out and defy all the laws that nay sayers have put against me. In the same breath, I feel like I shouldve had so much more for myself at my age, or maybe I just want more than most. I wanted to be an anastesiologist when I was a child, can you believe that. I was so fascinated with the fact that I could put a human being to sleep in order for them to go through surgery etc. Somewhere along the line Im sure I got discouraged once I realized how much math this job would entale. I often wished I wouldve pursued it, but since I didnt, I guess I've moved on. At any rate, I guess my moral would be to go after your dreams because you dont want to look back over your life and say, "wouldve couldve shouldve"
IN OTHERS NEWS...
A Breath of PHRESH AIR!!!
He who refeshes others, will himself be refreshed. Proverbs 1 1:25 NIV
You know, we as humans can sometimes loose sight of how bad we want something until it's slipping from within our grasps. We began to fight for it, with every limb we obtain, for we've claimed it, but the devil seeks to take from us (always).
We enable ourselves sometimes to believe that some things aren't meant for us, and that quite possibly the timing is all wrong. This may very well be the truth some of the time, but certainly not always.
Equip yourself with the mindset that anything is possible, and with a little determination, faith, and engenuity there aren't too many things that we as children of the most high CANT DO.
Look at it like this, "If Barack Obama did it, why can't I." If the dream doesn't start within, where do you expect to get most of your drive and inspiration. REFRESH YOURSELF, but it's ok to ALLOW YOURSLEF TO BE REFRESHED AS WELL!!!
REALLY AND TRULY,
Rheeghordliss
Ryan Leslie: A Prodigy (Literally)
KNOCK KNOCK MUSIC HEADS, has anyone heard R. Les' self titled album. It's seriously an unexpected treasure of musical gold according to me (I am THE connoisseur of a true sound). I can jam this album straight through, and even though my wife doesn't seem to be the biggest fan, I'm a littled bothered as to why???? Why baby?????She's not admitting it currently, but she secretly loves this album, and evidently she's telling me different because she knows it baffles me. Watch yall, this cat is about to be the future.
Ryan Leslie, tested out of high school early, and went on to Harvard where he graduated at the ripe age of 19. A dude who has an education from Harvard in Government and Economics, and chooses to write, produce, and sing has clearly got his whole heart and mindframe in this music.
Tracks like "Gibberish" which he describes as an array of emotions all bottled up inside. Gibberish is what comes out, when your mind can't produce clearer words to convey.
"I-R-I-N-A", a classic track where Leslie seems to be speaking to a young lady he's diggin. He taunts to her, " I want to make you happy, by just being myself, cause I can't be nobody else".
"Valentine", where Leslie whimpers, " I don't have to say you're beautiful, youve got plenty of other guys to say those words to ya." He goes on to say, "I KNOW YOU'RE NOT MY GIRLFRIEND, I SWEAR THAT I LOVE YOU". This is a song that makes me want to let the windows down in my car (which I seldom do) so the world can get a quick listen, and they too will know what good music sounds like.
R. Les if you're out there reading my blog, I'm ampin your album, and pubbin for you hard, cause I hear you bro. If you need a publicist, I recieved my undergraduate degree in Public Relations, and can be of valuable service to getting your album OUT THERE!
They need to hear it. If you're reading this, and you haven't listened to this brothas album, you need to get somewhere and get to listening. STRAIGHT UP!!
There is nothing in this galaxy comparable to an album that can be played straight through. My students listen to this album with me, because there are no curse words and they feel the positive energy the speakers emit. IT'S GOLDEN!!!
rheeghordliss
THE DEFINING MOMENT (speaking volumes upon deaf ears)
"When I was a child, I thought as a child, but when I became a man, I put away childish things" 1 Corinthians 13:11
As I got ready for work one day, I remembered the phrase, "Defining Moment" as it unexpectedly intruded my brain. I am certain that every vessle, every being has a defining moment, just as well as we all have a purpose. Many spend their whole life searching for this PURPOSE, but have you ever thought about the defining moment. This very moment that would essentially take you from good to great, average to excellent. Have you thought about the very moment that something inside you finally snapped; you finally stopped standing still, and began to trot towards your road of glory.
Many have not yet had their defining moment, their "Name in lights" debut if you will. Remember the defining moment must never be easy to achieve, as faith without works is truly dorment. As it goes, 'So a man thinketh, so is he'. Think as an adult and not as a child, cherish your hardships and naturally your hoorays. Take notice of the impression you make upon others, as these are all ingredients for a noble recipe.
As an adult, you are able to put things into a more precise perspective, because you have the ability and wherewithall to properly utilize deductive reasoning (thinking before you act/react/speak). Theoretically, as an adult there are no likeable excuses for your unlikeable actions. You are not allowed the same excuses as a child, so as an adult you should be able to feel your defining moment in the ground like an earthquake prior to its arrival. Many of us will miss this appearance as children sometimes do, but think with the ultimate ferver. I worry....will many of us know our defining moment when it reveals itself. Have many of us missed it already?
Be ready for the defining moment in your life, relationship(s), finances, spirituality, and hold steadily to good decision making. KNOW THIS: You have to have a defining moment in all aspects of your life, because such a transition is needed, and practically expected of you.
Some of you may have missed several moments already, paying attention to the things that get you nowhere. Don't be left behind...
Rheeghordliss
CANVASSING THE CYBER ROOM!!!!
On today, your inspiration must be a wall in which no machine or human being can destroy. Your smile must radiate the sun into a level of peace and understanding. You had better find confidence in knowing that the essentials of life must be well established in your domain, and solidify themselves consistently.
Be not dismayed, as there are vessels who want you replaced. Perhaps they could even desire to be the ones who replace you. KNOW THIS: Your swagger must boast to the masses, "Well hello there, I'm indispensable, and you are...?"
Enjoy yourself for yourself, and the pasture will follow your lead! Stay encouraged, and be encouraging...YOU ARE THE SHEPHARD!!!!
Rheeghordliss
WHERE AM I?
I literally ran across this poem.
The premise behind this poem was actually assigned to me in a Communications class in undergrad. We were assigned to write about a place we are in, and let our classmates guess where we are (i.e. an oven, a car, an airplane). As you will see, I decided to take the road less traveled.
It's partly written from me, and partly my eldest brother.
In the midst of this madness, that brings both pleasure and pain.
Where clear skies calm my nerves, but storms drive me insane.
I'm in limbo, somewhere between up and down.
A roller coaster if you will; did you hear that strange sound?
Like the beat from a drum, both furious and fast.
My heart jumps from my chest, my palms bead with sweat.
I'm in the midst of a madness, I hope I won't regret.
Between my heart and my soul is a heated debate.
My mind left out, seems that it can't relate.
How I got here is a mystery, something I just can't explain.
But if my residence changes, I'll be miles from sane.
I find truth within my soul, where lies are working overtime.
I'm the richest man in the world, but my pocket harbors a dime.
My nostrils are spread wide even in the midst of troubled times, and I can't find a bad attitude
on a sheet of paper with no lines.....I'm gone!!!
It's real in the battlefield, but it's serene in the home.
Never felt the need to be a dog, never felt the need to go out and roam.
I'm confused cause I'm cool, and just can't understand.
Why mystery knocks on my door late at night and holds me by the hand.
Smiley faces, and thank you's on mornings when it counts the most.
Keep me burning on the inside like a fresh bed of toast.
"GET REAL", I have to say to myself as if this aint true.
Don't laugh cause these crazy feelings listed above have probably happened to you.
I'm separated by a thin line, but I dare not cross.
Forgive me for what I've done in the past, I've messed up, I'll take the loss.
I'm a skyscraper on an alleyway, a chair in a bathtub.
I'm a phonebook on an abandoned highway, how about a hospital next to a club.
I am the memory to unforgettable moments, the key to fantasies.
I am a breakfast in bed, or a forest full of leaves.
I could care less about the hard times, cause I'm soothed by the good.
I'd give everything I had, If I had anything I would, where am I?
(*state of mind, not a physical place)
An ode to my unborn daughter!
Maleah (Muh-Lee-Ya) Jazelle Roy
My lovely daughter. A tender, beautiful breeze amidst this world's debrise.
A silent happiness for now, you're keeping mommy and daddy's soul at ease.
We are going and going in a forward motion because of your noted arrival.
Praying and seeking God consistently as one of his Disciples.
You are my unborn daughter, and I am awaiting your innosence patiently.
Hoping you will grow up, and undoubtedly have faith in me.
Faith that I will be there for you through the storms and the rain.
When people you thought you depended on may have caused you tremendous pain.
You are a ray of light, a supernova of sorts, casting goodness amongst the masses.
Forcing the people to get on their feet, and follow through on their actions.
Catapulting your predecessors to sheer greatness, you're appreciative all the while.
God blessed the day we got the news you would be our child.
We are forever indebted to you. You have turned our World upside down, and we receive it, and you with open arms.
See you soon Butterfly!!!!
Straight Up and Down!!!
So, today has to be a good day. I was awakened by the sound of my master (via alarm clock). He hosted me to a level of understanding, where I could acknowledge his goodness over my life, and remain consistently in that mind frame. GOODNESS FOR ALL I wanted to boast confidently. Hopefully the masses are hearing my cry, and devise a plan of their own, so as to receive such goodness. We must be a team, and work together for the COMMON good. Today, you are something extraordinary. As I told my students this morning, "You are truly one of a kind!" Exude that level of confidence, not to be confused with arrogance. And if so, who cares, we are in this life for a reason yall. Be good to it, and it shall be good to you. Continue to be an abolisionist against negativity, because sometimes people try to sprinkle that over your life, and as Biggie said they may "Pray and Prey on your downfall". When you got somebody doin that, you seek revenge in finding your way to the door. Blessings cannot be suffocated by the unrighteous. It's something our God won't allow. That's why you can't allow it either. Negative people breed negative things, postive people, not only breath positive things, they also recycle their positiveness along with others. Straight Up and Down. Your point of view, is solely that....IT'S YOURS!!!!
Rheeghordliss